Droppie [infosec] 🐨♀:archlinux: :kde: :firefox_nightly: :thunderbird:🦘:vegan:<p>It's still pretty bad atm, but orders of magnitude less than that earlier horrific episode today ~10:30 - 12:15ish. I hurt my back yesterday morn shaving my legs in the shower, just from that 7' of bending over. It stayed painful all that day, & night... but that's happened many times over the recent years, unfortunately. Today however, was a huge shock; i've never felt such continuous pain before nor been so immobilised by it. Given it was still hurting in today's shower, & given it was a sunny morn, i decided to begin my daily pootering this time on Lappy in the Sunroom, hoping the warmth coming thru the windows might help my back. For the initial hour or so, the pain stayed present but at historical levels.</p><p>Then, i needed to go have a wee... & all hell broke loose. Trying to stand up from the chair, my back began these ghastly spasms of pain so intense i could neither get up, nor stop screaming in pain. It went on & on & on [pain AND screaming + crying], i kept assuming that any moment it would bugger off & i'd be ok again, but it didn't. I simply could not find a way to stand up, everything i tried just made the spasms even worse. Eventually, after i dunno but maybe 30' or 40', with the need to wee [& more] by then acute, i found that if i endured one more massive spasm of not-joy i could slump down off the chair onto hands & knees on the floor, then crawl like that to the ensuite.</p><p>Therein, i could not find a way to lift myself up & onto the toilet, so came precariously close to a humiliating "loss of containment" literally millimetres from it. The fear of that powered me to endure another spasm of just amazing pain [again, all these being like nothing i recall from any prior part of my life, possibly/probably even including the bloody <a href="https://infosec.exchange/tags/UTI" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>UTI</span></a> i've been "enjoying" on & off since early last year] as i hoiked myself awkwardly up onto said dunny. Thereafter, it was simultaneously excruciating, exasperating & hilarious... i could not bear removing either hand from the bracing i was doing to try [not very successfully] to dull the pain by supporting myself, in order to grab some paper to wipe, then maybe 15' later once that was <em>kinda sorta</em> done, reaching down to hoik up knickers & pants was another sobering defeat for prolly another 10' or 20'.</p><p>So far i've had to skip brushing my teeth for fear of collapsing if i try, but i did manage to muddle my way thru opening a drawer & gobbing a paracetamol.</p><p>Now, a few hours after this delight began, the spasms are more once more sort of "pending" rather than ongoing, but the ordeal has genuinely shocked me. I always arrogantly presumed this sort of enfeebling agony crap happened to others, not moi. Never again shall i use the mocking meme <em>"help, i've fallen & i can't get up"</em>. Suddenly, it's become a brutal reality. Fuck a duck; colour me unimpressed.</p><p><a href="https://infosec.exchange/tags/health" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>health</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.exchange/tags/backpain" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>backpain</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.exchange/tags/crawl" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>crawl</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.exchange/tags/GammyBack" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>GammyBack</span></a></p>